Home-made Pictures :)

Its only meant for you

There is times when he look himself at the mirror, he thinks whether was he a suitable guy for her, whether did he make the girl angry, sad or whatever that is negative. He knows that there is someone that she can't let go, but he himself also can't let it go till now even though he looks physically fine, but mentally he is a guy drowned by things that he maybe shouldn't be doing at all which make things worse and even though he knew it, he still insist on doing it. His stubborn attitude is the cause to all this nonsense that almost seems irreversible and to him it is just like his cycle of life and he won't stop till he get what he wants, but getting deeper into the hole is what he gets for this cycle and no one is able to save him other than himself.

I did it again...really feel like dying...can somebody seriously just kill me right now...

Pick-up At West Coast With Freakshow

FUN FUN FUN but stress stress stress, a lot of strong players there. But happy to play with them even though they are quite quiet towards us, but still there is still some Freakshow players who came over to teach new stuff and I was more than happy to learn it :)

NYTP Training

When to West Coast Park for National Youth Trials Program today. A lot of familiar faces turned up for it and get to know new ones as well. Training included suicides, Go-To-Drills and hucking drills, but cannot play scrimmages due to my age limit haiz... Now I really don't know what to do for my Saturday as it used to be NPU training or maybe resting due to Winter League, but my hands are itchy for disc every now and then and wanting to improve not as an individual but as a whole with NPU mates. Guess have to get used to it for awhile and maybe not going for the NYTP training next coming Saturday.

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!

Yup its Christmas alright, which is also the season of Him and receiving lots of blessing from Him and everyone around us :) First of all wish everyone a Merry Merry Christmas and also smile a lot today and enjoy all the parties that your all are going etc.

Winter League Week 4

Double header today. Up against Joseph's team and Jon Sng's team. First match was super exciting and tough game, starting our flow was good but after that our point was chased up by them. Managed to get back the flow at the last few points and won the match.
My stats for this game : 3 Ds, 1 Assist, 1 Score.
Overall score 11-8.

Second match up against Jon Sng's team, but Jon was not around and quite a few of their key players are not around, but they put up a good fight and definitely love their spirit in the game, makes me want to play even more serious for them.
My stats for this game : 0 to all.
Overall score 17-5.

Project Flicksbee

Today we have Project Flicksbee competition in the afternoon at Hougang. Game started at around 12pm and first game was rather ok but after that the heavy rain came in, which drags the whole competition timing, so ended up playing in the rain. Manage to get 2nd position in the competition, glad to see the improvement in everyone on the field, proving that Winter League is really useful. We shall come back next time with better skills and experience for any competition that is ahead of us.

Sakae Buffet = Lunch + Dinner + Town Walkthrough

When to Clementi to have Sakae buffet for end of common test celebration :) Ate a lot as usual when comes to Sakae lol. Then head off to town to began our journey of town walkabout to feel the Christmas atmosphere there haha. We walked to a lot of places, Plaza Singapura, Takashimaya, 313@Somerset, Orchard Central, Orchard Ion and anywhere that is near town. Actually wanted to watch movie at Cineleisure but all don't feel like watching, so have to wait for next time which sounds impossible cause of trainings and etc. Oh well, just hope that anything will go on smoothly for the last 2 week of this year and a new beginning for the New Year 2010.

Lingers

Being able to forgive & forget is human, being able to accept is divine. Can we human understand?

I am definitely not divine cause there is some things I still can't accept. And no one can ever be divine cause there is always going to be things that you can't accept in life.

Winter League Week 3

Today up against Hussain's team, Saberteeth. Quite a strong team but their team got a lot of players didn't turn up, in the end got even stronger players come floating for them which make the whole game even more exciting, especially when Yi Liang and Dene came over.
My stats for this match : 3 Ds, 1 Assist, Scored 4. Overall score 14-8.

“I cry a lot. My emotions are very close to my surface. I don't want to hold anything in so it festers and turns into pus - a pustule of emotion that explodes into a festering cesspool of depression.”

Nicolas Cage

Susan Boyle's Songs <3

Wings to Fly

Want to spread my wings and fly
Away into the sky
How I dream to be so free
No more sadness no more pain
No more anger no more hate
How I dream to have those wings and fly into the sky

If now, I could grant my wish
I'd wish to have those wings
Those wings just like the birds
That fly up in the air

So high up in the air
With feathers bright and fair
No wealth nor power can make
My heart filled with such joy

Want to spread my wings and fly
Away into the sky
How I dream to be so free
No more sadness no more pain
No more anger no more hate
How I dream to have those wings and fly into the sky

Want to spread my wings and fly
Away into the sky
How I dream to be so free
No more sadness no more pain
No more anger no more hate
How I dream to have those wings and fly into the sky
I'd fly
with those wings....

I Dreamed a Dream

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they turn your hope apart
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As they turn your dreams to shame

And still I dream he’d come to me
That we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from the hell I’m living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed

Thoughts

Time passes so slow, you hate being in it, but it goes by so quick, for you don't want to end this period. Dreading the next season you search to find no other reason now you're stuck in this moving situation, action incurs reaction, inaction incurs inaction.

San Fransisco + Tasogare Surround = Relaxing :)

Nicer Song Then Watcha Say :)

Some may find this song irritating or not nice, but I love the ambiance it gives :)

Quotes

"In the words of a Persian sage: Love is a disease no one wants to get rid of. Those who catch it never try to get better, and those who suffer do not wish to be cured."
Paulo Coelho

死性不改 (奥语) is LOVED :)

再見了我的寵愛　誰願接受這種意外
你讚我天生可愛　不願看著我離開
同伴也話我傻　喜歡受挫　寧願情敵在傷我

人天生根本都不可以　愛死身邊的一個
怎奈你最夠刺激我　凡事也治倒我
幾多黑心的教唆　我亦捱得過
來煽風　來點火　就擊倒我麼

誰戀愛就多障礙　死性我不想改
如我沒有你的愛　我沒法活得來
情人的存在　是我從來都志在
難在我拱手讓愛

我怕可一不可再　難道你被愛都有害
我確信天真不會錯　威力會移山填海
同伴也話我傻　喜歡受挫　寧願情敵再傷我

＊人天生根本都不可以　愛死身邊的一個
　怎奈你最夠刺激我　凡事也治倒我
　幾多黑心的教唆　我亦捱得過
　來煽風　來點火　就擊倒我麼

　誰戀愛就多障礙　死性我不想改
　如我沒有你的愛　我沒法活得來
　情人的存在　是我從來都志在
　難在我拱手讓愛＊

突然好想你

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜 那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯 那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决定自己过
没有你却又突然
听到你的消息

走火入魔

对不起 刚才我是不是听错
还是我想太多想到了昏头
天气不错 开了窗 吹走脸红
进一步 退一步 都害怕打破
更不想在原地永远做朋友
给你线索也给我勇敢借口
下定决心沉默 就让沉默为我们追究
你和我 这一刻 不想到而交流
却突然震耳欲聋

一字一句一瞬间 走了火
一天一点一转眼 入了魔
忘了我从什么时候
忘了你为什么能够让我一步一步走火入魔

一直猜一直想一直揣摩一直到你变成甜蜜的心痛
如果可以 把如果变成结果
下定决心执着 就让执着为我们突破
我和你的小说 这时候出现烟火 让情节充满感动

一字一句一瞬间 走了火
一天一点一转眼 入了魔
忘了我从什么时候
忘了你为什么能够让我一步一步走火入魔

一字一句一瞬间 走了火
一天一点一转眼 入了魔
如果你有相同感受 感受到有一种突然的冲动
放肆一次 走火入魔

Winter League Week 2

Double header on the day of my marathon WOOO!!! Yup, didn't get to play much because of the after-marathon effect lol and was shocked when Joleen also ran for it and I never saw her, so our team got 2 dying players but we won both games :) First game was against Zhefei's team. Our team has a good flow and our zone play has improved since last week, I was pissed with myself for being skied by Ryan Mok RAWRRR!!!
My stats for this match : 2 Ds, 1 layout. Overall score was 15-6.

Second match up against Jordan's team, they have very strong line-ups and thus make the game damn exciting!!! But still didn't get to play much and kanna skied twice, kanna knee drop on my calf -.-.
My stats for this match : 3 Ds, 2 layout.
Overall score 14-10.

Standard Chartered Marathon 2009

Never really get to sleep on the day itself cause I can't... When over to bus pick-up point at 4am. Head off to race start point, meet up with Yuting, Hazel, Mithra, Noh, Marcus, Mervyn, Jitsiong, Bruno, BingHua and Jason. I never get to see Fakhrul and Liyz during the race, also never see other friends while running, very sad cause I was running alone all the way T_T Overall, quite happy with my timing cause I improve a lot but never managed to reach my within 4 hour target which was rather sad.

Standard Chartered Marathon 2009 in 2 days

Yup, 2 days and Standard Chartered Marathon is coming up. It has been a long wait for me as I have been training for it. I hope I can hit the timing that I have set for myself but the only thing stopping me is most probably my knee injury...but I will endure till the end cause I have friends who will support me physically and mentally, for them I MUST ENDURE!!! But after that I think my Winter League will cui xD, sorry team if I let you down T_T

" I can wait for you till you get over with him, but I can't wait forever "

With or Without You - U2 (original) Utada Hikaru Version

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y80VzyMHJmw

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side.
I wait for you.
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you.

Through the storm, we reach the shore
You gave it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you.
I can't live with or without you.

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give, and you give
And you give yourself away.

My hands are tied, my body bruised
She´s got me with nothing to win
And nothing left to lose.

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give, and you give
And you give yourself away.

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you.

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you
With or without you.

Chatting Session With Samuel

Just chatted not long ago with Samuel on MSN haha. Talked quite a bit but not a lot cause he got project to rush, but still its worth the time when chatting with him, cause he always has a lot of craps haha. It brings back memories how we used to do things together even though its only a year. He will be planning an outing on December with clique :), so can't wait for it to come!!!